TWENTY-THREE

Dear Readers,

YOUR GIRL IS NOW 23!!!

My 22nd year of living literally felt like a storm. It all happened too quick, and so much has happened. From starting my 22nd year with my friends partying, to falling in love with Jason, to completing my final year of university, expanding my blog, discovering my future, and to travelling Kelowna… all of it happened within 365 days.

TODAY, I still stand the same influential, positive, charismatic, sweet and loving Dezleigh. The recent year taught me how to be braver, and matured me in ways I could never imagine. I learned that sometimes life will get so dark that keeping a positive outlook gets a little tough… yet, I learned that if you surround yourself with people who carry stars on their eyes, and the sun in their hearts… I learned that these people’s light and glow, will lead you out of your darkness.

At 22, I learned how to value my friends, family, and Jason even MORE.

To my friends, I owe them so much for being the support system I needed when I was emotionally drowning. They were my life vessel, that carried me through the days wherein I felt like giving up. Graduating university would never be the same if I didn’t have my friends by my side. My success is partially theirs. I am so blessed to have them in my life.

To my family, I’m so thankful to have such a loving and supportive family like the one I have. My aunts are my first best friends, who only want the best for me. My uncles are my first protectors, who are there to watch over my back. My dad is my idol, who showed me how to live life to the fullest no matter what. Steve is my superhero, who raised me into becoming a strong woman full of wisdom, courage, and bravery. My mom, is a goddess with the power to heal my broken wounds and empower my frightened soul to believe that nothing is impossible if I hustle, pray, and dream. My whole life would be meaningless without my family.

To Jason, throughout this whole year, you were by my side through each chapter – may it be good or bad. I am truly in awe and madly in love with you. You calm my storms, and make my sunny days last longer than normal. Through you, I had gained another family outside my family. Another branch in my family tree has been born because of you. Jonas, is like the brother I never had and your mom is like my second mom who graces me with gentleness and calmness. Above all, you had taught me so many things and I am just so thankful to have you around as I continue on with life.

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Now that I’m getting older, each birthday feels a little sadder than the year before. Perhaps, it comes with the sad realization that I’m aging and losing my youthful years. But when I remind myself of all the great memories I made, the accomplishments I earned, the people who love me, and the great life I live – all of these combined makes me so happy and makes me feel so blessed.

This year, I will be travelling to Vegas to celebrate my 23rd birthday. Our Vegas trip is only the first of all the great things to come this year!!!

To my Readers, thank you for keeping up with me throughout the years. Without your support in reading, liking my Instagram photos, and supporting all my content, I wouldn’t be the influential Dezleighh that I am today. Thank you for embarking my life’s journey with me.

I pray that all my plans, goals, and dreams will come true in my 23rd year of life.

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With love,

Mary Dezleigh Teodosio.

Happiest 22nd Birthday Langga!

February 27, 2018

FACT: Jason (Shang) is a leap year baby. He was born on February 29, 1996.

Dear Shang,

You’re finally 22 years old! WOW! I’m not a cougar anymore!!!

Although, there are only 6 months between our age gap, that to me feels like 6 years. In our world, I often behave like the younger one who always gets into trouble and throws little sissy fits here and there – while you continue to carry yourself with so much intelligence, patience, and maturity. You’re truly amazing for your age.

At 22 years old, you had already accomplished so much. You’re already working as a revenue manager for a big company, while still in your 3rd year of university. You’re such a diligent and hard-worker, which is why you deserve every success that comes your way.  You’re the backbone of your family, a great leader to your basketball teammates, a smart person whose GPA may be slightly better than mine, and your sarcasm makes you a great and fun friend. You have plenty of great attributes, but above all, you’re the most loving and caring boyfriend a girl can ever have.

At this point, I’ve been lucky enough to get to know you. I learn so much from you, yet you’re younger than me… It’s true what they say, maturity doesn’t come from age, it comes from the core of one’s being.

Jason, thank you for being the best boyfriend. For being so patient, so understanding and so mature. Thank you, for loving me even though I’m drunk at 3:00 AM or when I’m stressed over midterms. Thank you, for editing my papers, reading my assignments, and even doing some of my homework for me. Thank you, for making my life a little easier. Thank you, for being so kind to my family and treating my family like yours. Thank you, for trying to influence me to be a better person. Thank you, for being born.

I may be a little dramatic at times, and my “extraness” may get in the way sometimes… but one thing is for sure, the Dezleigh today wouldn’t be as special if there wasn’t a Jason supporting her. For that, all I can say is, thank you!

You’re probably in tears by now…. which is totally fine, because if this didn’t make you feel teary-eyed then these photos will:

 

Happy, happy, happy 22nd birthday Langga!!!! I love you so much and I can’t wait to make more memories with you! 

With love,

BBG W PHAT **$ 🙂

22 – Letter for Myself

September 6, 2017

Dear ME,

As I enter another year of life, let me quickly reflect on my 21st year of life. Within the past year I learned so much lessons in love, relationships, friends, family, school, and life. I am not the same person as I was a year ago. The old me wouldn’t even begin to comprehend the reality of her heart being broken for the first time. The old me wouldn’t even dare to imagine that all her fears would come true, yet she will face those fears head on and conquer it all. The old me wouldn’t even believe that she will fall in love again and gain a new appreciation for life, for love, for everything that shines and glows bright.

A lot has changed, and to be honest, I’m a better person now than I was a year ago.

Yet, the fears still exist. From the fear of getting heartbroken again, to the fear of failure, to the fear of losing people, to the fear of losing the drive in achieving my dreams. I had come a long way from the darkest times of my life, to where I am now. If life was to get more difficult within this point moving forward, I truly believe that I am more than capable of handling it all. I learned so much as a 21 year old naive girl and those lessons turned me into a woman with a heart strong enough to handle pain, a mind eager to learn more, and a body prepared to endure.

During my 21st year of life, I learned that Tax Class is not as easy as I thought, and I should had bought the textbook for the sake of my GPA. I learned that partying for 15 weekends in a row is insanely bad for my diet and body. I learned that being broke sucks and that I must work hard to support myself financially in the future. I learned that I’m not the best at being honest. I learned that travelling for 5 weeks to the Philippines would had been more fun if I had someone dear with me. I learned that our time on this Earth is temporary, and we will lose our loved ones eventually. I learned that I should had taken each opportunity presented to me, instead of letting it slip away. For instance, I had the opportunity to book my flight to the Philippines a month earlier… time enough to give my grandfather one last hug before he passed away… my failure to do so destroyed any living opportunities on this planet of allowing me to tell my grandfather how thankful I am to have a man like him in my life. Aside from death, I learned that people in my life are not always going to stay. Some of the most important people in my life will leave as new ones enter. Most importantly, I learned that a heartbreak is the best way to reshape and improve a person whose path has been rerouted.

Dear Dez, as you enter another year, I hope you remember all the lessons you went through. You will doubt yourself at times, but know that deep inside you exists strength and talent. You will fear many things, but there’s nothing else that should scare you more than losing faith in yourself. You are so much better today and you know it yourself. I hope you allow yourself to love genuinely and whole-heartedly once more. I hope that you allow people to prove themselves to you, as you do to them. I hope that you strive 100 times more towards becoming a CPA, a genuine blogger, a healthy individual, a great friend, a sweet daughter, and a kind person. Your dreams will come true, because you will remember to work towards each of them. Just believe. So many people believe in you, and I believe in you too.

Sincerely,

Yourself, Mary Dezleigh Teodosio.

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