TWENTY-THREE

Dear Readers,

YOUR GIRL IS NOW 23!!!

My 22nd year of living literally felt like a storm. It all happened too quick, and so much has happened. From starting my 22nd year with my friends partying, to falling in love with Jason, to completing my final year of university, expanding my blog, discovering my future, and to travelling Kelowna… all of it happened within 365 days.

TODAY, I still stand the same influential, positive, charismatic, sweet and loving Dezleigh. The recent year taught me how to be braver, and matured me in ways I could never imagine. I learned that sometimes life will get so dark that keeping a positive outlook gets a little tough… yet, I learned that if you surround yourself with people who carry stars on their eyes, and the sun in their hearts… I learned that these people’s light and glow, will lead you out of your darkness.

At 22, I learned how to value my friends, family, and Jason even MORE.

To my friends, I owe them so much for being the support system I needed when I was emotionally drowning. They were my life vessel, that carried me through the days wherein I felt like giving up. Graduating university would never be the same if I didn’t have my friends by my side. My success is partially theirs. I am so blessed to have them in my life.

To my family, I’m so thankful to have such a loving and supportive family like the one I have. My aunts are my first best friends, who only want the best for me. My uncles are my first protectors, who are there to watch over my back. My dad is my idol, who showed me how to live life to the fullest no matter what. Steve is my superhero, who raised me into becoming a strong woman full of wisdom, courage, and bravery. My mom, is a goddess with the power to heal my broken wounds and empower my frightened soul to believe that nothing is impossible if I hustle, pray, and dream. My whole life would be meaningless without my family.

To Jason, throughout this whole year, you were by my side through each chapter – may it be good or bad. I am truly in awe and madly in love with you. You calm my storms, and make my sunny days last longer than normal. Through you, I had gained another family outside my family. Another branch in my family tree has been born because of you. Jonas, is like the brother I never had and your mom is like my second mom who graces me with gentleness and calmness. Above all, you had taught me so many things and I am just so thankful to have you around as I continue on with life.

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Now that I’m getting older, each birthday feels a little sadder than the year before. Perhaps, it comes with the sad realization that I’m aging and losing my youthful years. But when I remind myself of all the great memories I made, the accomplishments I earned, the people who love me, and the great life I live – all of these combined makes me so happy and makes me feel so blessed.

This year, I will be travelling to Vegas to celebrate my 23rd birthday. Our Vegas trip is only the first of all the great things to come this year!!!

To my Readers, thank you for keeping up with me throughout the years. Without your support in reading, liking my Instagram photos, and supporting all my content, I wouldn’t be the influential Dezleighh that I am today. Thank you for embarking my life’s journey with me.

I pray that all my plans, goals, and dreams will come true in my 23rd year of life.

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With love,

Mary Dezleigh Teodosio.

My New CAR!!! Here’s to a New Chapter!

Dear Readers,

On April 26, 2018, I said “goodbye” to my first car, a 2001 Chevy Cavalier. My first car was quite a special one. Regardless of how beaten up it was, it was a part of my journey throughout high school and throughout university. That car took me places I’ve never been before. That car was a part of countless carpool jams…. countless late nights at Crescent Heights… countless heartbreaks…. countless memories that I will never, ever forget.

My first car was passed on to me by my step-dad, Steve. It was pretty much his first car too. Remarkably, that car lasted in our family for a complete 17 years without ever failing us. It’s been through a lot with me. In high school, unlike many kids my age, my first car gave me freedom. Being able to drive a car at the age of 16 was a privilege. Ever since I got my learners, that car was pretty much with me everyday and everywhere I went. That car has seen some crazy and wild things, been through my highs and lows, and through all the stumbles and falls… it’s been a good old friend…

I remember driving my friends to parties and clubs in my Cavalier. I remember late nights of just sitting in that car, talking about dreams and fears with my dearest friends. I remember driving cold winters to school… driving my family around… driving myself around… My Cavalier was a beast… literally.

As time kept rolling, my Cavalier started to weaken. The brakes needed work and its windshield wipers was pretty much broken. (Most of my friends literally witnessed me physically pouring out washer fluid on to the windshield just because my car wouldn’t spray it out – this has become an inside joke between all my friends and I… and this is a perfect example of my car’s dysfunctions… it was a struggle).

And so, like most chapters in a book, my Cavalier’s chapter came to an end. As my brakes came too unbearable and too scary to drive, we had to let it go and replace it with something new… (don’t worry, the Cavalier is still in our family’s hands!!! Just with a different driver/owner, fixed brakes, fixed engine, and fixed windshield wipers – this blogpost is seriously just for the dramatics of showing off my new car)

Here are pics and videos to commemorate my old, 2001 Chevy Cavalier:

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AND NOW, I INTRODUCE TO YOU, MY NEW CAR!!!!!

This is the 2017 Honda Civic Coupe, Touring.

 

 

This car is quite a beauty. It comes with leather seats, wireless charging, custom rims and tires, and my favorite part… it has a huge compartment inside!!! I can literally fit a bag of chips beside me while driving and still feel comfortable. Not to mention, the all black paint job and rims that totally makes the car look sexier!

I also picked a coupe over a four-door car, simply because this car is my, “I’m not having babies until I’m 30 car“. I wanted to get a car for me, and Jason ONLY. To me, the idea of having a four-door car screamed, “kids” and “carpool”… 2 words I don’t want to deal with for the time being. The coupe seemed more like an appropriate choice for a lady, who’s only in her early 20s… a lady with no kids yet, and a young lady transitioning into a young adult!

As a recent university graduate, I consider this car as my first adult purchase. However, this is also my parents’ grad gift for me. We established to share the cost of the car. As soon as I start working, I’m paying for my own insurance, gas and maintenance costs, as my parents pay for the bi-weekly car payments. So, all in all, its a good deal for a young adult like me! It’s also great gift from my generous mom and dad!

This is truly a blessing. I am thankful for all that I have. Sometimes, life can push us to our limits. In some cases, we tend to focus purely on the negatives. For instance, I’ve always envied people who drove nicer cars… faster cars… more expensive cars… yet I forgot to be thankful for the fact that I had my Cavalier. There were times wherein I overlooked my blessings. My Cavalier may not had been the best, but it was still a blessing to have. I soon realized, that there are people who wants to drive and/or own a car but can’t afford to, would gladly switch spots with me. Owning any car that was able to take me places I wanted to go, was better than its opposite. Regardless of how beaten up my Cavalier was, it was still a reliable car that took me to my desired destinations. That’s when I realized the value of all things and how I must take what I have as a blessing in its own light, rather than comparing it with what others have. The more I became more grateful, the more I realized just how much blessings I truly had.

But heyyyyy…. this Civic, is a bigger blessing and I’m incredibly thankful for it!

With love,

Mary Dezleigh Teodosio.

I’m Finally Ready – Meet My Boyfriend

July 11, 2017

Dear Readers,

After my first heartbreak (find out more here: Broken: October 30, 2016) my whole view on relationships completely changed. At some point, I even considered being single for the rest of my life. I even considered moving to a new city just to be isolated away from all the familiar faces in my life. My last breakup destroyed my ability to trust, and to love someone else greater than myself… or I once thought so. All of my doubts, frustrations, and anger in love changed when a 6 foot 1 gent came into my life.

Meet my boyfriend, Jason Yang!

We began as a pair who just wanted to be in each other’s company for the summer. Originally, we were introduced by my friend Gen during one of my drunken-party nights, and we began to text soon after. I first met Jason through a delightful afternoon of eating ice cream. We arranged to casually go out for ice cream at a Menchies nearby. Jason and I both live in the northwest area of Calgary, making it convenient for us to go to a nearby strip mall wherein Menchies is located. Our day began as soon as he picked me up in his red modified Genesis Coupe.

I’ll never forget how he made me feel that day… I felt so lost in our conversation and just blissfully in awe of how well I can connect, relate, and adore a complete stranger. My simple 3 hour ice cream grub with someone whom I barely knew, was turning into a complex 3 hour ice cream grub with someone I was meant to know. Nearing the time for us to go home, I felt robbed of time and I wanted the day to keep on going. After our ice cream grub, I wanted to get to know Jason more and I knew I really, really, really, liked him.

This summer, I never expected us to become a couple.

I’ve been very vocal in expressing my desire to remain single for the duration of summer. But, the best things in life often happens unexpectedly. For the next weeks after our meeting at Menchies, Jason and I became inseparable. We enjoyed each other’s company a little too much and we didn’t want to waste a perfectly fine summer alone. We wanted to create a summer we both will never forget. At first, we gave each other until the end of summer to determine if we were going to last more than just a summer fling. Astonishingly, we turned out to be more than just a season’s worth of romance. As we developed more and more of a strong liking and fascination in each other, it was getting obvious that Jason was ready to make us official… he was ready to turn our status into a “boyfriend-girlfriend” level… he was ready to commit into a fruitful relationship with me.

But I was scared.

I thought I wasn’t ready and I selfishly wanted the summer to be single…. but deep down, I knew I wanted to become his girlfriend eventually. I just wanted to take things slow and to assure myself that I wasn’t rushing into another temporary relationship fix. I didn’t want to hurt myself let alone hurt him, so I asked him to wait for me. Due to my selfish desire of independence, I bluntly told Jason that I’m not quite ready for a relationship. I asked Jason to give me the summer to understand myself better. I asked Jason to wait… and he did exactly that.

He waited until I finally told him, “baby, I’m ready”

Soon after I gave him my word, a few weeks later I found myself on the 12th floor of Sheraton Suites Calgary Eau Claire. It was a fairytale proposal. I had never been surprised in my life until that day. I’m not going to dive too much into this, because I want to dedicate a full “story time” video and blog about how he asked me to be his girlfriend… because the story will melt each girl’s heart, and make each woman crave for one like it.

I want to redirect this post to him.

Yes, at some point I didn’t want to be committed this summer. Yes, I was having fun partying each weekend, doing “my own thing”, acting carefree…. but NO – Not once did I think him and I would just remain as “friends with benefits” or a “summer fling”, I knew we would eventually turn into something more. It was all a matter of time to determine when we would become officially entitled and exclusive to each other. On June 25th, 2017, Mr. Jason Yang dropped on his knees and asked me, “will you be my girlfriend?”

I said, “YES!”

Now, I’m locked into a blossoming relationship with a man whose heart is pure gold. Jason treats me like a princess… literally. His smile cures my sorrows. His voice calms my storm. His touch soothes my pain and his eyes sees my soul. All the heartache I once felt is so worth it! If I had to endure that heartbreak again in order to receive Jason as my reward for all the agony, I would repeat that heartbreak process over, and over, and over again. This is the kind of love I’ve been dreaming of for many years. I’m finally ready to allow someone in. I’m finally ready to love someone greater than I ever had before… because I know this man will love me even more.

We’re just two trolls who finally became as one. 

With love,

Mary Dezleigh Teodosio.

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