Relationship Mood Board – How to Celebrate Your One Year Anniversary!!

Dear Readers,

As you all may already know, Jason and I celebrated our one year anniversary on June 25, 2018. Since it was on a Monday, we decided to have our anniversary dinner on Saturday, June 23. Here are some pics from our dinner at Sukiyaki House:

On our actual anniversary date on June 25, 2018, Jason and I made a Mood Board!!!!

What is a Mood Board?

Ideally, a Mood Board is a giant poster/board that hold photos, and words that lead towards inspiration. Ultimately, a Mood Board should help you visualize what you’re thinking or dreaming about in your head. By putting all of these creative ideas or dreams or visions you have from your head, into something physical such as a poster paper, can help you channel out your energy the right way. It helps you determine the goals you have in mind, and pushes you to believe and strive towards those goals.

The power of the mind is no joke. Have you ever heard of the saying, “the more you think, dream, and pray about it, the more it’ll come true”. The Mood Board, is the visual representation of that saying.

The idea of making a Mood Board came from my best friend, Tamika. Originally, she told me to make one for myself only… but then I realized, why not make a “Relationship Mood Board” instead?!?!

Jason and I gathered photos from the internet that represented the 5 most important things in our relationship. These 5 are:

1.) Family

2.) Home

3.) Pet

4.) Travel

5.) Cars

This is how our Mood Board looks like:

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As you can see, at the back of our board we wrote a special letter from our “current selves” to our “future selves”.¬† It’s a reminder of who we are right now, and who we aspire to be… just in case, somewhere along our lives wherein we might forget.

A quick summary of the 5 most important things in our life, and the photos we selected.

  1. Family – Jason and I want to have 2 kids. We also want to establish our careers as CPAs (Chartered Professional Accountants) and land stable jobs. We both agree that job security is important in order to maintain a happy family.
  2. Home – Thankfully, we both agree to a modern looking house, and modern decor. I want a nice kitchen, with white marble countertops, white walls, and modern furnitures. Jason wants a gaming room, wherein he can play his gaming computer, TV, Xbox, and Play Station (typical guy, I know).
  3. Pet – This was mostly MY IDEA. I grew up with two cats, and ever since I lost them, I’ve been relentlessly dreaming of owning my own pet cat. Ideally, I want a fat grey cat, just like the one on our Mood Board ūüôā
  4. Travel – Both of us want to travel the world before we officially settle, get married and have kids. At the top of our travel bucket list includes, Philippines (my¬†country of birth), China (Jason’s country of birth), Mexico, and Las Vegas (Jason enjoys gambling – so this would be the perfect getaway for him!).
  5. Cars – Our dream cars all happen to be in white colors!!! Mine would be the G-Wagon, and his are the other two cars on the board (I have no idea what they’re called).

I love our Mood Board!!!

It’s the best source of inspiration, and motivation to keep on going. It’s truly a physical way of viewing our dreams as a couple. Now that I have it up in my room, every time I glance at it, I feel so much more inspired… more motivated… more ambitious… and it feels as if my dreams, are not too far away.

Our Relationship Mood Board, represents the goals that Jason and I are working towards. Each couple must have these sets of goals, because having an end goal wherein both partners can work towards is key to a lasting relationship. How dull would your relationship be, if you and your partner have no dreams… no shared visions… no shared goals… A couple must always, always dream and work hard together, because that is truly the key to a beautiful and long relationship.

Remember this, “the glory and joy of achieving your goals as a couple will taste so much sweeter, because the couple dreamed it together, worked for it together, and are living in it together. Don’t let your fear hold you back… support each other… encourage the other… and one day, in God’s good grace, you’ll have everything in your Relationship Mood Board too!”¬†

With love,

Mary Dezleigh Teodosio.

The Lessons Time Can Teach

October 1, 2017

Dear Readers,

This time around last year I was in a toxic relationship that blinded me from seeing my own truth. This time last year, I had different goals, and my priorities were not the same. It took a heartbreak to make me realize how I was straying farther and farther away from the person I truly wanted to be.

I had to redefine myself, and correct the past mistakes I made.

The past few weeks I had been trying to figure out myself. In the broadest way, I went searching for how I want “Mary Dezleigh Teodosio” to be like around this time again next year. A year ago I thought I would be someone else, and now I’m reevaluating it all. Now, I find myself picking up the slack on all the lectures I missed, waking up earlier for all the days I slept too much in, eating healthier for all the crappy food I had been feeding my body, socializing more in return for all the missed memories I could had made, working harder, being better, and loving a hundred times stronger.

The future is truly unpredictable. Tomorrow holds thousands of uncertainties. The next hour is another chapter to unravel. The next minute still has more. The next second is still a breath away. So, how am I suppose to prepare myself right now for who I will be tomorrow… next week… next month… next year? Who will I be then?

This is how I learned to believe and have faith that the greater good will come to those who wait. Patience learned from the cruelty of time, is a lesson worth learning. Time is neither a foe or an ally. Time is simply a measure of when the seasons change, the days passing, and the amount of growth we make. In so, I learned that time can be whatever you make it to be. Since time itself is not the sole indicator of one’s growth, time can be construed to fit in any possible way you want it to be. If you want to take your time in doing things a certain way, then so be it. If rushing and living life on the fast lane is more your style, then go for it! You have the ability to control your own time and how you want it to be spent – your life is yours to live.

But there is one lesson that our time will teach us in return.

Time taught me how to be patient. Regardless of how slow or fast I took things, I learned that if it’s not meant to be for me, it won’t happen. I learned that no matter how much I planned and dreamed, if it wasn’t destined for me, it won’t happen. For each failure in relationships, academics, life, and love I’ve ever had, I learned that there is a purpose behind it all. My patience taught me how to be strong and how to have faith in the uncertainties of life. I learned that I don’t always know the answer on “how to live a good life” and sometimes, what I want is simply not meant for me.

I learned that time can create better beings in lost souls. I learned that people can change in due time. I learned that we all have a purpose in this life, and eventually we will slowly unravel it day by day… but only to unravel so little of that purpose, and not to reveal its entirety. I learned that our quest to seek for our full life’s purpose, in chasing for time, and being patient throughout the process of its discovery is what creates a meaningful life.

Importantly, I learned to believe that everything happens for a reason, and that our time is the most valuable component of our lives.

At this point, I’m still trying to figure out who, what, and where I want to be in life. However, the process of figuring it all out is so much easier now since I had been falling in love with someone new. Love is so unpredictable, one minute you’re in love, then you’re out of love, and next thing you know you’re back to falling in love all over again.

Yes – I am talking about Mr. Jason Yang. His arrival in my life made me realize that I can fall in love again, and correct my past faults. I’ve been so lost in falling in love, yet I had not fallen out of myself either. Right now, I had found a partner I can build a future with… and our dream coincidentally match each other’s. I finally found a match to push me academically, professionally, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. And to think that the last year me¬†didn’t know about this person coming into my life today… is insanely absurd!!!

Meeting Jason is proof that good things will come to those who wait. Meeting Jason gave my past troubles a reason. Meeting Jason is giving me a purpose to be better. Who knew that losing an old flame can result into a bigger, brighter, and stronger flame… a flame big enough to outshine the sun in me, like a supernova just waiting to explode… not in a catastrophic end, but towards rebirth of a new star.

With love,

Mary Dezleigh Teodosio.

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I’m Finally Ready – Meet My Boyfriend

July 11, 2017

Dear Readers,

After my first heartbreak (find out more here:¬†Broken: October 30, 2016) my whole view on relationships completely changed. At some point, I even considered being single for the rest of my life. I even considered moving to a new city just to be isolated away from all the familiar faces in my life. My last breakup destroyed my ability to trust, and to love someone else greater than myself… or¬†I once thought so.¬†All of my doubts, frustrations, and anger in love changed when a 6 foot 1 gent came into my life.

Meet my boyfriend, Jason Yang!

We began as a pair who just wanted to be in each other’s company for the summer. Originally, we were introduced by my friend Gen during one of my drunken-party nights, and we began to text soon after. I first met Jason through a delightful afternoon of eating ice cream. We arranged to casually go out for ice cream at a Menchies nearby. Jason and I both live in the northwest area of Calgary, making it convenient for us to go to a nearby strip mall wherein Menchies is located. Our day began as soon as he picked me up in his red modified Genesis Coupe.

I’ll never forget how he made me feel that day… I felt so lost in our conversation and just blissfully in awe of how well I can connect, relate, and adore a complete stranger. My simple 3 hour ice cream grub with someone whom I barely knew, was turning into a complex 3 hour ice cream grub with someone I was meant to know. Nearing the time for us to go home, I felt robbed of time and I wanted the day to keep on going. After our ice cream grub, I wanted to get to know Jason more and I knew I really, really, really, liked him.

This summer, I never expected us to become a couple.

I’ve been very vocal in expressing my desire to remain single for the duration of summer. But, the best things in life often happens unexpectedly. For the next weeks after our meeting at Menchies, Jason and I became inseparable. We enjoyed each other’s company a little too much and we didn’t want to waste a perfectly fine summer alone. We wanted to create a summer we both will never forget. At first, we gave each other until the end of summer to determine if we were going to last more than just a summer fling.¬†Astonishingly, we turned out to be more than just a season’s worth of romance. As we developed more and more of a strong liking and fascination in each other, it was getting obvious that Jason was ready to make us official… he was ready to turn our status into a¬†“boyfriend-girlfriend” level… he was ready to commit into a fruitful relationship with me.

But I was scared.

I thought I wasn’t ready and I selfishly wanted the summer to be single…. but deep down, I knew I wanted to become his girlfriend eventually. I just wanted to take things slow and to assure myself that I wasn’t rushing into another temporary relationship fix. I didn’t want to hurt myself let alone hurt him, so I asked him to wait for me. Due to my selfish desire of independence, I bluntly told Jason that I’m not quite ready for a relationship. I asked Jason to give me the summer to understand myself better. I asked Jason to wait… and he did exactly that.

He waited until I finally told him, “baby, I’m ready”

Soon after I gave him my word, a few weeks later I found myself on the 12th floor of Sheraton Suites Calgary Eau Claire. It was a fairytale proposal. I had never been surprised in my life until that day. I’m not going to dive too much into this, because I want to dedicate a full “story time” video and blog about how he asked me to be his girlfriend… because the story will melt each girl’s heart, and make each woman crave for one like it.

I want to redirect this post to him.

Yes, at some point I didn’t want to be committed this summer. Yes, I was having fun partying each weekend, doing “my own thing”, acting carefree…. but NO – Not once did I think him and I would just remain as “friends with benefits” or a “summer fling”, I knew we would eventually turn into something more. It was all a matter of time to determine when we would become officially entitled and exclusive to each other. On June 25th, 2017, Mr. Jason Yang dropped on his knees and asked me, “will you be my girlfriend?”

I said, “YES!”

Now, I’m locked into a blossoming relationship with a man whose heart is pure gold. Jason treats me like a princess… literally. His smile cures my sorrows. His voice calms my storm. His touch soothes my pain and his eyes sees my soul. All the heartache I once felt is so worth it! If I had to endure that heartbreak again in order to receive Jason as my reward for all the agony, I would repeat that heartbreak process over, and over, and over again. This is the kind of love I’ve been dreaming of for many years. I’m finally ready to allow someone in. I’m finally ready to love someone greater than I ever had before… because I know this man will love me even more.

We’re just two trolls who finally became as one.¬†

With love,

Mary Dezleigh Teodosio.

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