When Girls Hate Each Other…

Dear Readers,

Millennials today have a big problem.

Nowadays, millennials measure beauty by the amount of likes and comments a girl can get on her Instagram photos. Thus, competition among girls lead towards aggressive and more negative forms. Today, girls online will simply hate on another girl just because she’s posting so much selfies which is attracting hundreds of likes each time. If a girl is getting more online attention, views, and followings, this can attract female jealousy and female hate. Other than online popularity, the less popular girls have their own share of online critics too. Today, it’s hard to find a place for a girl to express herself without being criticized or hated upon. It’s difficult to ignore that online attention can amount to both positive and negative types.

In this particular post, I want to address negative female behaviours towards their fellow females. Specifically, I want to talk about females hating on other females solely because of what they see online.

The idea of hating on another girl just because of what she posts online is absolutely horrific and sad for me. Most of this online hate comes in the form of “hate comments”, for example, “you’re fat”, “you’re ugly”, “try hard”, “ew”, and best of all, “slut”.

When girls hate each other, we go against the whole idea of women empowerment.

When girls hate each other, we prevent rising females to lead in an influential way.

When girls hate each other, we destroy each other’s self-esteems, and crush each other’s spirits.

Instead of supporting each other, women are sooooo good at dragging each other down. 

I truly, do not support the idea of dragging each other down. One girl who doesn’t fit the mold of societal beauty does not deserve to be criticized for her appearances. An Instagram model flaunting her god given gifts should not be criticized either. Any form of hate towards another girl’s appearance, clothing, lifestyle, or beliefs are unacceptable. Remember, if a girl is posting stuff online that DOES NOT HARM YOU OR AFFECT YOU, her postings should be none of your business. Yet, women’s inborn jealousy and arrogance will inevitably cause hate towards other women who she may perceive as a “threat”, or as “someone who is better than her”.

What happened to women supporting other women?

It doesn’t matter how big or small a girl is, how many followers she has, or what type of photos she posts online, because at the bottomline of it all, no one has the right to judge another by the way he/she decides to live and share their lives online. If someone is sharing posts that truly bothers you, my best advice is to, “unfollow”…. if it’s at the point wherein that individual is harming your peace of mind, the next best advice I have is to, “block”. Truly, there is no sense in starting online wars if the drama prevention steps, such as unfollowing and blocking are so easy to follow.

An Instagram influencer who works so hard on providing content, capturing marketable images, and starting a brand for her name, should not be condemned as one who is, “seeking for attention and fake” – She’s simply making moves and making a name for herself. This girl works so hard to get her creativity out, to create the best pictures and share meaningful content… why the hell would hate on that, is it because you can’t do it like she does? 

A girl who may only have 50 followers, have a different body shape than most, and may have severe social skills, does not deserve to be bullied online either. Who gave you the right to drag someone down… especially someone who is fighting her own battle against depression, handling her own mental issues and dealing with her other personal problems… This girl already has too much on her plate, and dealing with unnecessary online drama is punishment she does not deserve…who made you so perfect that you can freely criticize her appearance or life? 

We all have our battles. 

The online world is a cruel place to be for those who do not have tough skins, and strong minds. I feel bad for those girls who are always being put down on social media. Worst of all, I feel awful for those girls who lack confidence in themselves and thus feel the need to drag others down with them. Those girls who are so negative online, are the worst types of girls… I think that female online bullies have insecurities bigger than the girls they’re trying to drag down.

Females are just jealous creatures in nature. But this jealousy does not need to surmount your inner good. To type hateful comments online and to actively promote bullying requires action which is derived from one’s corrupted mind and heart. Instead of drawing energy from this, why can’t females just focus on the good instead?

Instead of promoting hate towards other females, why can’t we all just unite and support each other. Instead of commenting, “you suck”, why won’t you comment, “you’ll get better”. Instead of commenting, “you’re ugly”, why can’t you just say, “you’re pretty”, or say NOTHING at all. Some females fail to understand that their actions online have an impact to those targeted by their actions. One simple comment on a girl’s photo in Instagram can either make or break her day….

I choose to make her day. 

I’m the type of girl who would much rather comment positivity on someone’s page rather than typing negative comments. Remember, your actions online is also an image of who you are in real life. What you say online is a reflection of who you are. In so, I want to be someone who is known for being genuine, kind, and nice both online and in real life – this is why I choose to uplift females by saying nice things to them, complimenting them, and making them feel important. I would much rather be a positive female than a negative one. Think about it, doesn’t it make you feel good to be complimented?? Doesn’t it make you feel nice when someone else calls you, “pretty” or comments, “I love your outfit”?! So, why can’t we all just share this feeling of joy from being adored and supported… instead of making each other feel like shit?!

Online bullies will always exist.

The way to deal against these bullies is through unity in numbers. Think about it, there are more victims than there are bullies. If all of us victims, and non-victims support each other, I’m sure these online bullies will slowly disappear and stop. By making someone’s day as simple as commenting, “you’re pretty”, on their recent selfie online, or commenting, “good job”, on their most recent accomplishment, can outweigh any negative actions and ill wishes a bully will have. Our words matter. By saying or commenting something nice and sweet, can truly help to uplift someone who is having a bad day. Like I said before, we all have our battles… so why not ease each other’s battles by being a nice person to each other?

Spread love, not hate.

Don’t be that girl who hates too much on others, because when girls hate each other it’s a disease that will hurt as all. Remember, your online character/persona reflects you in real life too. So don’t act big and mighty online, when in reality you’re not.


With love,

Mary Dezleigh Teodosio

Let’s Protect the Girls of Tomorrow – #MeToo

January 23, 2018

Dear Readers,

The concept of transitioning into an adult, while still having a youthful soul is a scary thought. How can a girl share her creativity in a world that judges and criticizes too much? How can a girl be creative when gender barriers still exists… and for some reason, a boy’s creativity will always prevail over hers? How can a girl be strong enough to voice her truth, when no one seems to care… when no one seems to believe… when no one seems to take a stand. How can a girl be strong enough to conquer all forms of oppressions? How can a girl finally transition into a woman with passion, strength, and ability to empower others with her beautiful mind and heart?

When I was a kid, I had a strong fascination with balloons. This is my homage to the inner child in me – the child who had always believed in the good. The child whose innocence was not tainted by the sad reality that life is difficult – especially if you’re a girl.

Now, I can start this post by discussing the gender wage gap existing in the workforce, or by criticizing the likes of Harvey Weinstein or Donald Trump. I can tell you how much it pains me to know that male privilege exists in our society… how most of the top CEO’s are men, how the glass ceiling exists to target the female population, and how the opportunities for women to grow their careers are not as significant as it is for men. But instead, I want to narrow the vast oppression of women into one specific area: sexual harassment. 

I want to tell you how much I hate seeing women’s talents being ignored unless they’re ready to bare it their all. To be notice by a crowd, a woman not only has to showcase her abilities and talents, she must also be compliant to male orders and directions. A woman with a talent is nothing if she is not ready to bare herself to a man with authority…. to allow herself to be taken sexually… to be harassed in order to reach her dreams. This is the reality that tainted my innocence and pushed me to stand with the women who demands for equality and truth.

When I was kid, someone once told me to, “marry young and obey your husband”.  We brought up our girls to understand that women must be willing to cater to their husband’s needs, and we raised our girls to become “stay at home moms”. We had gone through generations of male dominance and male leadership, without ever questioning their “male” position as a female. Old traditions of teaching young girls to cook, sew, clean, and look beautiful for a man who’ll take care of her financially is outdated. Our society is partially to blame for ignoring all the voices of women who wanted more… for ignoring women who wanted to tell the truth… and for shutting down any woman who wanted to protest against the dominant male figure.


In university, I took a Women’s Studies class that had opened my eyes to the vast inequalities that women face compared to men. Women’s Studies made me understand that being a girl is really, really, really fucking hard. We have to work so much harder to get a job, to be creative, to excel in sports, to be noticed solely with our minds and not our bodies, and to be treated as equals of men. Women are more susceptible to domestic violence, sexual assault, harassment, and negative stigmas. Women role models in politics, sports, business, and religion are not as dominant as male role models. Men seem to have the better road in life… while we are forced to climb the highest mountain peaks, in order to reach what most men can easily attain. IT’S REALLY NOT FAIR. 

Sexual harassment is a term that I didn’t associate myself with before, and that is because of fear. I too, am guilty of being uncomfortable with the topic. I too, was oblivious with the topic. I used to be the person who would much rather talk about the latest Instagram trends than to talk about sexual harassment. Now that I think about it, I should had discussed the issue more when I could have… I should had done it for the sake of the next female generations to come.

What do I mean?

Well, I’ve never been sexually harassed before, but I know people who had been. At the time, their stories didn’t make me ache like it aches me now. Their stories didn’t touch me as deep, because I was uncomfortable and had very little knowledge about the topic. After taking a semester of Women’s Studies class, I can now confidently express my opinions about sexual harassment. That class broke my comfort levels and made me realize that if I keep being quiet about all the sexual harassments existing around me… if I choose to be quiet and not spread the voices of women needing to be heard… If I choose to do NOTHING… then I too, am failing at being a woman.

We need to listen to the women who had been hurt. We need to support them and let them understand that we are here for them… fighting with them… and we are here because we want the next generations to understand that they are safe. The next generation of girls needs to be raised knowing what their rights are, and knowing that their rights are protected. The next generation of girls needs to understand that their bodies are not a sexualized item. The next generation of girls deserve to feel like their voices, opinions, and ideas matter. We MUST obliterate sexual harassment now, for the sake of all our future daughters, and their daughters.

Ideally, we must fight against the men who feel entitled to harassing women and placing our bodies in a sexualized manner – we must defend our rights as women to be treated as equals of men. Ideally, the word “sexual harassment” should be an issue most boys get educated about in order for them to treat their future girlfriends and wives with the utmost respect. Most importantly, we must educate our boys about sexual harassment NOW, in order to protect the girls of tomorrow, and to give justice for the women who had suffered sexual harassment or assault.

SEXUAL HARASSMENT – It is real. It is affecting women’s lives. It is an issue we must address.

As a creative individual/blogger, I feel safe knowing that I have a platform that doesn’t need me to succumb to any male input. I have the control over my blog, thus I have the ability and freedom to release whatever creativity, content, stories, posts, or pictures I want to share. IF my freedom as a blogger was ever taken away from me, that would honestly shatter my spirit and destroy any of my desires to keep on writing… I can only imagine what it must had felt like for those creative women to be oppressed by men. That’s like me losing my blog… that’s like me losing my voice. 

Creativity stems dreams.

We all have creativity inside us. We all have dreams. The reason why I stand with the #MeToo movement (movement against sexual assault and harassment) is because of the undignified individuals who are threatening the dreamers from dreaming… thus threatening the dreamer’s creativity and ideas. If we keep on being silent about sexual harassment, how many more girls will have dreams of making it big only to find out that she must take her clothes off first in order to make it BIG… How many more innocent dreamers will we wake up in the nightmare of being raped, just because they really wanted that job they worked so hard to attain… How many more creative thinkers are we going to kill just because their ideas threatened ours… How many more creative minds are we going to ignore just because we’re scared to listen… HOW MANY MORE?

The #MeToo movement inspired this post. I wanted to share with you all my take and my voice against sexual harassment. The photoshoot in which I had the beautiful honour shooting with Jason May, is my abstract view of childhood and adulthood. In the photos below, I symbolize the adult and the balloons represents the little girl I used to be. As a woman, I STILL CARRY THE VOICE OF MY YOUNGER SELF. My younger self was pure and innocent… the little girl in me always believed in the good… and I still believe in that light, which is the goodness triumphing over the bad. As an adult, I will now carry on my younger self’s vision and pass on that light to the next generation… essentially, I’m passing on these balloons to you. I hope that you stand in the light of the good.

Dear Readers, this is the time wherein we really need to listen and to be more accepting. To the men who are standing with us and listening, I applaud you so much. To the women who are voicing their stories to the public, I hope you keep on talking because you have an audience at your feet. To the younger kids who are scared to be creative and to dream… keep on dreaming, someday your dreams will become a reality.

With love,

Mary Dezleigh Teodosio.




Stop Social Media Stalking Your EX!

June 13, 2017

Dear Readers,

Last Sunday I suffered another giant emotional breakdown which resulted to a late night parking lot conversation under the rain, followed by a plate of nachos in Denny’s at 2:00 am. My companion: someone who has changed my perspective on relationships, and he is also someone who I truly adore at this given time. However, this post is not about introducing this “new individual”, rather, this post is about why we ended up in a school parking lot, on a rainy Sunday night, with my tears streaming down my face while his hand was tightly holding mine. This post is a story about how one individual taught me how to truly let go of my past love and lectured me on how to finally move on.

On the hours prior to my emotional breakdown, I somehow found myself lurking around my EX’s Instagram account. I might as well add that this is NOT the first time I creeped my EX’s Instagram account since our breakup. I often find myself casually “checking” my EX’s page from time to time. As I opened my EX’s profile, I found pictures that turned my whole mood upside down and left me in total disarray. I’ve seen pictures of people I didn’t want to see. I was caught up in an ocean of anger, sadness, jealousy, betrayal, and many more unexplainable feelings. Due to this mix of emotional chaos, I broke down and transferred my emotional aggressions and frustrations to this “new individual” – let’s call him “J”.

J and I had been seeing each other for a few weeks before this emotional breakdown. Now, it’s important I mention all his attributes so that you would have a better understanding as to why my actions on that Sunday night were completely outrageous. He’s a charming gentleman, mature, responsible, smart, sweet, sincere, and incredibly kind. For the past few days leading to that particular Sunday, J and I were undeniably sharing a deep interest and attraction to each other. Everything between J and I were going along great and we were off to a great relationship beginning. But, after seeing what I saw on my EX’s Instagram profile our tranquility as a pair was threatened. Out of the blue, I gave J a panic call exclaiming to him how, “I want US to end”.

In his confusion for my profound and unexplainable behaviour, he asked for the reasons why I made such a sudden decision. You can’t really blame him for being bewildered because we had been having great time together before all my emotional commotion occurred. Therefore I told him, “I’m not ready for this [relationship] yet again, I’m clearly not over my EX yet”. Furthermore, he asked me why I still feel this way… It has been months since my breakup, yet I still get affected by my EX’s actions. My only response was an explanation of what triggered my emotions which can all be blamed to MY decision on creeping my EX’s Instagram account.


Refusing to end the beautiful beginning we were having, J insisted we have a talk in person despite of how late the night was getting. Without any further hesitations, I agreed to having our talk in person and he drove over to my house within the next 20 minutes under a rainy June night. Our “talk” began shortly after he picked me up from my house and we drove straight to a quiet school parking lot nearby.

In all, J made me realize that social media “stalking” and “creeping” is one of the reasons why I can’t move on. I’m getting too caught up with what my EX is doing in his life, which is directly preventing me from living my own. You see, J rationalized my behaviour and the results of it through explaining that I placed myself in this emotional situation. It was my fault for lurking around too much. It was my fault for creeping too much. It was my fault for always spying on my EX. It’s my fault as to why I still can’t move on from my last relationship.


If I hadn’t been creeping my EX’s Instagram account on that Sunday night, then I wouldn’t have that particular conversation with J. If I didn’t “check” on my EX’s new posts, J and I wouldn’t have to deal with my delirious state of mind. If I refused to spy on my EX, then I wouldn’t have felt unworthy, unsatisfied, unloved, unappreciated or undeserving. These are the reasons why I need to stop social media stalking/spying/creeping/checking on my EX. I placed myself in this emotional state of mind. I caused this emotional wreck inside of me, simply because I still find myself lurking around my EX’s Instagram page.

Does it really matter who HE is dating now? Does it really matter what HE does? Does it really matter what HE posts? His life doesn’t involve me anymore. I’m only fooling myself by creeping too much. I’m only hurting myself by looking too much… and I can’t let this happen anymore. I need to move on. 

In order to move on from the past, one must learn to take all the steps necessary to move on. In my case, I must learn to stop spying/creeping on my EX and focus more on me and my own relationships.

I almost lost a great guy that night… I’m glad he stayed and talked me out of making yet another dumb choice. 

At that night, I realized how I must learn to move on, instead of holding on to the memories of my past. That Sunday, I realized how there are people out there willing to fight for me and who are willing to be a part of my life. I learned that I can’t fully let go of the memories from my past, however, I can create better memories with better people. I must learn to let people in, instead of pushing people away. J made me realize that I am wasting too much of my time worrying about other people’s lives, when I have a beautiful life of my own to live. From now on, J made me swear on how I should truly move on by living my own life and worrying less about my EX. I can’t keep losing track of my new relationships and new beginnings… remaining stuck in the memories of my past will not lead me to growth and self-fulfilment. Therefore, I must let go and move on.

No more social media stalking/spying/creeping/checking on my EX or on other irrelevant people. The ones who are truly meant to be a part of my life will be a part of MY social media accounts… I shouldn’t waste my time searching for “ghosts” in my life, because the real ones should already be surrounding me.

Through this, I hope you all learn from my mistakes. If blocking your EXs on social media is not your thing, then you should have the will power to resist the urge on lurking around your EX’s social medias. If you can, PLEASE BLOCK YOUR EX ON ALL YOUR SOCIAL MEDIAS. This will truly save you a lot of heartache and help you to move on faster. The only reason why my EX is still unblocked from my social medias, is simply because I know he’s viewing my life through my accounts and regretting each mistake he has made upon me.


Mary Dezleigh Teodosio.